Date with Destiny – Part I

Date with Destiny – Part I

If I made a different decision, could I have avoided it all?  Avoided the pain?  Avoided the breakdown?  Avoided the trauma?  I ask that question of myself many times.  For a myriad of reasons, I am confident the answer is no.  Perhaps I could have staved it off for a...

Make Me Broken

Make Me Broken

I remember it well.  Just over a year ago I was driving the girls to school.  The sun was shining and my heart was full.  I had never felt better or happier.  A song came on the radio, and these words swirled in my head and my heart... Make me broken, so I can be...

When Darkness Descends

When Darkness Descends

It's back.  The debilitating anxiety has returned.  An unsuccessful attempt to lower one of my medications (as recommended by my naturopth) has landed me back in the throws of darkness.  Honestly, I had forgotten just how bad it could get.  These past few months have...

2015:  The Year of ????

2015: The Year of ????

Today's writing prompt from Bonnie Gray is the infamous "Word of the Year" post.  Perhaps you've seen this phenomenon filling the blogosphere.  Instead of an itemized list of new year resolutions, you choose one word on which to focus as the days, weeks, and months of...

It’s Time – New Year’s Eve Musings

It’s Time – New Year’s Eve Musings

It's the final day of a year that I've been waiting to release to faded dreams of memory.  For all the heartache of 2014, one would think I should be giddy to begin anew.  But, that's the thing about "shoulds,"  they never do any favors. Instead, I find myself quietly...

Does anybody know me?

Does anybody know me?

I hear small feet skipping in and see a pair of brightly colored sneakers enter the bathroom stall next to me.  Unexpected words are spoken into the stillness of a school bathroom.  The little voice asks, Does anybody know me?   I startle at the question and reply...

The Story {Day 4}

The Story {Day 4}

Written across the ages, it forms.  Each life, a thread, expertly written across the page. I long to know The Story and my part in it. Most days, I attempt to write my own plot and protest in frustration when the chapter doesn't go the way I planned.  Crumpled bits of...

To Know Him {Day 3}

To Know Him {Day 3}

It takes a long time to really know someone, and even then it's not easy.  If fact, it's rare to truly know another person.  You have to understand their history, observe how they interact with others, look at the work they do, and gain insight into their nature. ...

The Gift Giver {Day 2}

The Gift Giver {Day 2}

It was a painted piece of clay attached to a necklace with yellow yarn.  A homemade charm lovingly designed by my eldest daughter to replace the "real" one she lost.  Happy birthday, Mom!  I looked all over the house, but I couldn't find your missing charm.  I made...

Beginning {Day 1 of 31 days}

Beginning {Day 1 of 31 days}

I giggled as my eyes scanned the new comment on my Facebook page, "You are such a calm & peaceful person... So inspiring!!"  If only they knew... How often we brave the world, full of smiles and glow, a façade covering the reality of what lies within. This quest...

Gracefully Seeking the Still {31 Days}

Gracefully Seeking the Still {31 Days}

Schedules.  Deadlines.  Weary and overwhelmed.  If the snapshot of your life reflects the frazzled and the frustrated, then we are kindred spirits, indeed.  I know all too well that Seeking the Still can easily sound like another thing to add to an already overflowing...

Not A Resolution In Sight

Not A Resolution In Sight

I know You're there, God.  It's me, Laura.  I guess you know that I've been struggling for quite some time about what to do here in this space.  Seeking The Still has been my quest for several years now. Ever since You whispered the idea to me on a springtime day, and...

Heaven on Earth {day 7} 31 Moments of Still

Heaven on Earth {day 7} 31 Moments of Still

Today's moment isn't a single snapshot of time, but rather a place.  The place I feel most content, most  at peace, most still... I was pregnant with Audrey the first time we heard about it.  At a church event, a couple shared stories of a place they vacationed each...

Tick Tock {day 6} 31 Moments of Still

Tick Tock {day 6} 31 Moments of Still

I gaze upon my children and wonder.  Of all the moments we spend together, of all the words I speak, which ones will lock in their memory?  30 years from now when they gaze back to these days, what will they recall... Clocks.  Lots of clocks.  Grandfather chimes,...