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Seeking The Still… Still
One minute I put a pizza in the oven, the next I was running toward the stairs. With eyes wild and heart on fire, I felt IT rising. Panic. Out of nowhere. Wait. Maybe this isn’t panic, maybe it’s the virus that Anna had a few days ago. Let’s see, sudden nausea, hot...
Caught on Tape: My Bad Mom Moment Revealed
Guilt. Shame. Sadness washes over me as the home video abruptly switches from my cute little girls to me with my game face on, all dolled up in a white denim jacket. It was 9 years ago in 2007, when video cameras still recorded on tiny tapes. Apparently, I intended to...
Blackout: Chasing Contentment
On the back of my senior t-shirt, I added these words in white vinyl letters. Harmful or Harmless? What do YOU think? My maiden name is Harm, thus the creative play on words. But a darker meaning also lurked there. I swallowed my first taste of alcohol at age 16...
What I Would Tell Her
Fear tells me to hold these memories deep in the cavern of my mind. My weirdness, quirks, and imperfections feel safe hidden from stinging curiosity and judging eyes. But change is stirring. With each word released, with every story shared, my heart and soul are...
When Resolutions Are Made To Be Broken
“Mommy, will you play pet shops with me?” the little voice pleads. I sigh and look up from the computer, stare at my to-do list a mile long. I begin to utter the familiar words, “Not right now sweetheart. Maybe in a little awhile.” Then I remember. Soon I will be the...
A Prayer for Seeking The Still
There's much to say about 2017, but it can wait for now. At this moment I want to share this prayer with you. I have adopted it as the prayer for Seeking The Still. I do hope it will bless you and remind you to ever turn your gaze from yourself to the Author of Life....