Total Truth Tuesday: I’m Afraid of 31 Days

I’ve tried twice and failed.  In two previous years, I started 31 days of writing in October.  My intentions were good, my follow-through not so great.  And yet, this year you told me it’s important to you.  You said you’ve been struggling, too.  You wonder what I’ve found most helpful and most difficult in this journey of seeking the still amidst the never-ending, unrelenting chaos of life.  I want to tell you.

There has been so much heartbreak, brokenness, and unmaking.  There have also been miracles, mending, and healing.  I want to tell you so much in these 31 days, but I’m scared.  I’m scared I’ll start and not finish.  I’m worried how I’ll fit it in.  I don’t have a plan.  I don’t have 31 topics ready, no posts written, no outline to depend on.  I want to take a pass, but you’ve shared your needs with me.  You’re finding community in these words, through this journey.  So if you’ll accept my fear and give me grace to find my way, I will do my best to offer you 31 days of Seeking The Still in October.  No plans, no promises.  Just my heart and yours. And we’ll trust God for the in between.  Begin with me on Thursday, October 1.  We’ll do it together and see what He has in store…