Day 31: Why I Never Wrote The Final Post Until Today

by | Nov 17, 2015 | Anxiety | 1 comment


Tonight’s post serves a dual purpose. It is the final essay in 31 Days and also a Total Truth Tuesday. I know my final post was due October 31. The idea, after all, was to write every day in October. I almost made it. But I didn’t.

I could make excuses. I wasn’t feeling well. I was back into survival mode after lowering a dose of meds. I was…

The truth is, I was scared. This 31 day experience began as an experiment and ended with..well, it ended with you, the reader. I wish I could find words to explain how it felt to have so many of you share your own stories. I wrote about me, and you gave me you. Each person who reached out gave me an incredible gift. And I didn’t want it to end.

That was selfish of me, and I’m sorry. I now realize that this space can continue to be a sacred place for us to meet and share. While I treasure the experience of our 31 days together, the end of the series does not mean an end to “us.” In fact, I have a feeling that this is just the beginning.

I recently read this sentence in an amazing book called The Dictionary of Biblical Imagery. The authors had this to say about trials. The purpose of a trial is to reveal what is genuine, to prove what is true and expose what is false.  

That is what I shall  continue to do in the space of Seeking The Still. My life is full of trials. Chaos, really. And in the midst of it all, there is the inexplicable still. I am learning it is possible to experience the divine right in the middle of the mess, and I want to share those moments with you. I seek to expose what is genuine and true, while opening my hands to let go of the false. I do believe it will take a lifetime.

Thank you for being part of this journey. It continues to unfold every day.

Much Love,

31daysThis series is not a tidy story of a fairy tale life.  It is messy and truthful.  For 31 days, I will share pieces of my journey, practical coping techniques for dealing with anxiety, spiritual insights, emotional struggles, and a whole lot of other.  I will likely  jump from here to there as the Spirit leads.  I invite you along as I share my experience, my strength, and my hope. Thank you for being part of this journey with me.  Together, we shall seek the still.

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