Tonight I read yesterday’s post as the opening devotion for our church’s praise team and band rehearsal. It’s one thing to release these words into the digital world, and another entirely to stand up in person and share them aloud. I feel more vulnerable. More real. Yet I also felt it was also a step toward something…I know not what.
It’s strangely freeing for the future to be unknown. Like the sower who scattered the seed, I pray God takes these words and plants them. I imagine them reaching outward, like golden rays revealing a tapestry made of words and embrace. Prayers and love. Acts of kindness. Compassion. Obedience and sacrifice. Laughter and joy. Stories and tears. You and me standing up in communion with the Spirit of the Divine.
I literally stood shaking in my boots this evening as I shared just a glimpse of where I’ve been and what I’ve learned. These 15 days of writing have ignited a fire in my soul, and I want to thank you for being part of a life that God is making new.
And if you see me in real life, it’s ok to talk about it. Really it is. You don’t have to pretend you don’t know. I have passed through the waters, and He was with me. I have passed through the rivers, and they did not sweep over me. I walked through the fire, and I was not burned.
I want to talk about the journey. I do. It won’t be weird or awkward. Well, maybe it will be a little, but it will be worth it. We’re in this together, remember? Connected by golden beams of hope.
I stood up. I hope you do, too.
This series is not a tidy story of a fairy tale life. It is messy and truthful. For 31 days, I will share pieces of my journey, practical coping techniques for dealing with anxiety, spiritual insights, emotional struggles, and a whole lot of other. I will likely jump from here to there as the Spirit leads. I invite you along as I share my experience, my strength, and my hope. Thank you for being part of this journey with me. Together, we shall seek the still.